impasse

im in a weird spot where i feel like everyhting is working out for me personally but its a day late and a dollar short for everyone else around me. i honestly hate myself for being in the financial situation im in. so many bills behind but no real help or any bright ideas on catching up. had a plan to be halfway to a million by now, niggas that cant just stick to an easy spelled out plan fucked that up. now they need my help, but my household needs my help, and i can barely do that. i hate myself for being in a position to decide which bill i should pay. they should all be on autopay. teh self loathing is real. but on the brightside im the bass player for teddi tuesdays. couple hundred dollars closer to not solving any of these problems. yeah… fuck life

-Arthur